the big question

so i guess that i am living fully now. i am financially independent from my parents, out of school, and i own a car, amongst other adult qualifying activities/pursuits. i have a job and i am surprised at my ability to fall into the working groove. i used to think of myself rather irresponsible and challenging, but that was when i was in school for seven years. i fell into a comfortable slacker cycle. i did what i had to get by and by the end, in all reality i barely got out because my values where totally and completely of center and out of focus.

i wasn't sure that i wanted to be a union organizer but i took the job because the benefits are good, it pays well, and i would travel. i was totally unimpressed after my first week on the job. but each week i like the job more and more. i learn more and the end goal of a campaign is no longer a fuzzy outline but a clear defined statue. each week we try to chip away to the true form hiding in the stone. people get terribly and grotesque maimed in the meat packing industry. huge corporations and conglomerates see the bottom line verses a man with out an arm or a woman who lucky to be alive after being pressed by an industrial stamper - 6 broken ribs, internal bleeding, torn, bruised organs, dead on the plant floor and resuscitated on the plant floor. at first i was sincerely doubtful of the union's commitment to the labor movement which has waned on a national level.

i know that this is a fight for the good and weak - i just don't want to caught up in the stream, to become comfortable in a repetition and practice and not challenge myself, like i did before. i wanna grow and progress constantly because who i was a year ago was an uninspired, lazy, and gluttonous girl.
will i be able to prevent her return?